Dear My Fear
Interactive & Narrative VR Experience
VR
2024/25
About
當世界套上名為強迫症和躁鬱症的濾鏡 OCD & Bipolar disorder used to filter my vision
感知、認知、定義、記憶、聯想、情緒。
是感知構成認知，是定義塑造記憶，是聯想掀起情緒。
亦是認知規限了定義，是記憶框架了聯想，是情緒過濾了感知。
躁期讓我自覺無所不能欲罷不能，然而抑鬱和焦慮總隨即應約而至。在兩極之間拉扯掙扎，強迫症和躁鬱症肆意撩動情緒，矇騙認知，安插聯想，讓我戴上了一層厚重的濾鏡。
從此，我看見的世界不再一樣。
以復元藝術家第一身記憶始，以精神科醫生專業作結，窺探精神疾病的視點。
Perception, cognition, definition, recollection, association, emotion.
Perception shapes cognition, definition molds memory, and association ignites emotion. Yet cognition confines definition, memory frames association, and emotion filters perception.
Riding on the crest of mania, I feel incredible — invincible. Yet depression and anxiety always follow , pulling me back into their undertow. Surfing between the waves of manic and depression, my emotions are distorted, my cognitions are deceived, and my associations are manipulated.
A thick, unrelenting filter beclouds over my senses, reshaping the world before me.
Nothing looks ever the same.
Begins with the raw recollections of an artist in recovery, and concludes with the clinical insight from a psychiatrist, here is the rare glimpse into the fractured yet vivid landscapes of the mind.
從何而起 Where it started…
我總質疑自己，到底憑什麼跟人分享經驗？情況遠談不上嚴峻，病情比我惡劣的人多的是。我該以什麼自居，代諸多精神病患者發聲？
當我察覺到自己再次陷入自我批判的循環時，我便下定決心要投入到這個項目中。揮之不去的自我否定、自我檢討，似乎是每個精神病患者都繞不過的課題。我體驗過那種如履薄冰的感覺，害怕別人認為我反應過度，或者指責我小題大做，於是我先行否定自己的感受，逃離自己的情緒，試圖隱瞞他人，實則欺騙自己——直到恐懼反撲襲來，一發不可收拾。
我在把自己拼湊完整的過程中學懂，只有正面處理才能平息負面情緒；只有接納理解負面情緒，精神創傷才有癒合的可能。
為了創造一個讓正視這些傷痕、治癒這些傷痛的空間，我的 VR 項目由此誕生。
獻給我最親愛的朋友、敵人與導師。
此致
我的恐懼
I doubt the righteousness of myself talking about my illness a lot. “Whom could I share my experience on behalf of? My conditions weren’t that severe anyway. Am I even qualified to speak up for myself?”
I was indeed determined to work on this project when I noticed that I had again fallen into the loop of self-criticism - for not being “ill” enough. Going through self-blame and overthinking seems to be an unavoidable suffering from mental illness. I know how it feels, fearing that others might see me as overreacting or making a fuss over nothing, I deceived and negated my emotions and feelings from everyone, including my own self.
It took me some time to realize that only being properly addressed can ease the negative emotions, and only through conversations and normalizing the existence can cure mental illnesses.
To create a space for us to acknowledge, discuss and heal the often-hidden wounds, this is where my VR project originated.
Dear my fear. To my dearest friend, enemy, yet mentor.
Coming !
Public Event
VR Cinema 虛擬實境體驗
| 免費入場 | Free admission |
| 建議預留45分鐘體驗時間 | Suggested experience time: 45 mins |
|日期及時間 Date & Time |
29-30 Mar 2025 11am - 8pm
| 地點 Venue |
灣仔茂蘿街7 號 2樓展廳
7 Mallory Street Wan Chai 2/F Exhibition area
Reserve a Spot!
https://dearmyfear-public.eventbrite.com
Coming !
Online Release
Dear My Fear - VR will be available online for free public download at the early Apr 2025.
Previous
Campus Event
VR Cinema 虛擬實境體驗
| 免費入場 | Free admission |
|日期及時間 Date & Time |
20 Feb 2025 12 -7 pm
21 Feb 2025 2 - 8 pm
| 地點 Venue |
香港城市大學 邵逸夫創意媒體中心M9001
M9001, Run Run Shaw Creative Media Centre, City University of Hong Kong
Sharing Session 座談會
香港心聆「我就是我More Than a Label」計劃協辦，與臨床顧問和復元人士對談為精神疾病去污名化，並分享VR創作心得。
Open dialogue co-host with MindHK's 'More Than a Label' campaign, featuring clinical advisors and recovery ambassadors on mental illness destigmatization
Behind-the-scenes insights on Virtual Reality creation under UE5.
| 語言 Language |
粵語 Cantonese
| 日期及時間 Date & Time |
21 Feb 2025 12 - 1 pm
| 地點 Venue |
香港城市大學 邵逸夫創意媒體中心M1052
M1052, Run Run Shaw Creative Media Centre, City University of Hong Kong
| 精神科專科醫生 |
特別嗚謝心大心細 Big Heart Small Heart的蜜蜂醫生和Leo醫生。
https://www.bigheartsmallheart.com/
本計劃由香港藝術發展局第一屆「藝術科技人才駐場計劃」資助及支持。
Funded & Supported by the Hong Kong Arts Development Council (HKADC) under the 1st Edition of the “Young Art-Tech Talents Residency Scheme”.
香港藝術發展局支持藝術表達自由，本計劃內容並不反映本局意見。
Hong Kong Arts Development Council supports freedom of artistic expression. The views and opinions expressed in this project do not represent the stand of the Council.
