從何而起 Where it started…

我總質疑自己，到底憑什麼跟人分享經驗？情況遠談不上嚴峻，病情比我惡劣的人多的是。我該以什麼自居，代諸多精神病患者發聲？

當我察覺到自己再次陷入自我批判的循環時，我便下定決心要投入到這個項目中。揮之不去的自我否定、自我檢討，似乎是每個精神病患者都繞不過的課題。我體驗過那種如履薄冰的感覺，害怕別人認為我反應過度，或者指責我小題大做，於是我先行否定自己的感受，逃離自己的情緒，試圖隱瞞他人，實則欺騙自己——直到恐懼反撲襲來，一發不可收拾。

我在把自己拼湊完整的過程中學懂，只有正面處理才能平息負面情緒；只有接納理解負面情緒，精神創傷才有癒合的可能。

為了創造一個讓正視這些傷痕、治癒這些傷痛的空間，我的 VR 項目由此誕生。

獻給我最親愛的朋友、敵人與導師。

  此致

我的恐懼

I doubt the righteousness of myself talking about my illness a lot. “Whom could I share my experience on behalf of? My conditions weren’t that severe anyway. Am I even qualified to speak up for myself?”

I was indeed determined to work on this project when I noticed that I had again fallen into the loop of self-criticism - for not being “ill” enough. Going through self-blame and overthinking seems to be an unavoidable suffering from mental illness. I know how it feels, fearing that others might see me as overreacting or making a fuss over nothing, I deceived and negated my emotions and feelings from everyone, including my own self.

It took me some time to realize that only being properly addressed can ease the negative emotions, and only through conversations and normalizing the existence can cure mental illnesses.

To create a space for us to acknowledge, discuss and heal the often-hidden wounds, this is where my VR project originated.

Dear my fear. To my dearest friend, enemy, yet mentor.

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本計劃由香港藝術發展局第一屆「藝術科技人才駐場計劃」資助及支持。

Funded & Supported by the Hong Kong Arts Development Council (HKADC) under the 1st Edition of the “Young Art-Tech Talents Residency Scheme”.

香港藝術發展局支持藝術表達自由，本計劃內容並不反映本局意見。

Hong Kong Arts Development Council supports freedom of artistic expression. The views and opinions expressed in this project do not represent the stand of the Council.